Hello

I'm glad to have some time to myself today to write a little.
I was walking to my car after work today and thought "my, this is a perfect day to light a fire" before realizing a-la Dorothy that I"m not in Charlottesville anymore.
Mom's at the Tech game right now, enjoying herself I'm sure. I had to stop listening to the game b/c of The Office of course, so I don't know what the score is right now.
I'm enjoying my job for the most part, I can't imagine how I'm going to deal with having a full workload though as mine is currently 1/5 what it's going to be. I have only had a handfull of meetings with clients but I am hooked. It's really an amazing thing to be able to work with such interesting people and to be in a position where they feel comfortable talking to you. It really is a priveledge.
I got some cider and ginger ale today, held off on the whiskey. It's delicious.
I am also thinking of making some cookies... I wonder if I could get them done in half an hour. It's just a baking kind of night.
Or I could just pass out in bed, which is more likely at this point.

settling in

to my routine still, slowly coming out of limbo and gradually starting my 'real' job as I acquire clients. I'm actually looking forward to the cold of winter now. It will give me something to fight against, or to surrender to some times. Things are splintering, people are leaving, it's just a time of speed I think. Acceleration after years of being held back on the steps. Eventually everyone will come together again on the turn...I just hope some of them are the same people I started out with.
So I'm realizing that it's difficult to make friends when you're not placed with 20 other people your age (and often your general intelligence/motivation bracket) for a minimum of six hours a day. Your new co-workers may also be 'breeders', consumed with the life or lives of their children. Therefore, you may feel you have no way to relate to them, and that consequently all your conversation furtherers come off as self absorbed.
"Sorry I'm late, my son just took forever to get ready. I mean, I had to prompt him every step of the way, 'getyour backpack, tie your shoes'"
"Yeah... I did that to my mom also. I remember this time when she started a motivational behavior chart for me using m&ms as incentive... it didn't work til they realized I had never had them before, and didn't like them"
etc. etc.
eh, anyway. I have to get to bed so I'll be rested for tomorrow. ::evil glare towards Nithya and all other federal govt workers::
ps I swear to gawd that if we actually ahve monday off I do not KNOW what I will do but it will be XTREME.
<3 M

Hello Everyone

Hi, I'm just taking this blissfully uninterrupted moment to write a note saying 'hi' and 'i'm not dead or anything'.
To comment on a few things before I forget:
YES the office was awesome.
OMG i have been thinking every night about 'what I have to do tonight before I go back to get ready for work tomorrow' EVEN THOUGH THERE IS NOTHING. I realized very belatedly this was something I have termed "Homework Conditioning", a disorder not unlike mental carpal tunnel which causes one to worry incessantly if there is no homework to be done because of a lifetime of repeated homeworkings.
Unfortunately, I don't know where the heck my time GOES after five... I suspect a vortex sucking the fabric of space into the drain in my basement. Nothing has convinced me of an alternative explantation, so I'm going with that.
Anyway, I really like my job. I am (knock on wood) relatively stress free, but I STILL don't 'have any people' yet, and I keep reminding myself regardless of the 'reason' or randomness behind this, I should use this free time to the fullest to get to know resources and people and become comfortable in my environment. So I'm not torn up about it.
I'm enjoying the environment-- because learning is encouraged and neccesary. It seems like the 'how to deal with people' stuff is kindof trial-by-fire... which is mildly disconcerting to me. Although It's not like counseling where there are different kinds of constraints... I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have a JOB to do with these people, an objective that's very concrete, EX: help them get into housing. Because of course it's not like there can't be or shouldn't be goals in therapy, they're just more like "feel better, process X, acknowledge Y problem". Anyway, I think I've made my general point.
I am still wary of joking around with the staff... which, frankly, tends to share my sense of humor. I just am not to the point where I can say something terribly sarcastic... Whenever I play it out in my head I realize if they don't get it, things could go badly. So... babysteps.
I am thinking about everybody-- I have started like five letters-- I rented a Yoga video from the library that I haven't gotten to yet. I may do some tonight since mowing didn't make me as tired as I anticipated. I am taking the stairs at work, which I enjoy and is not overly tiring. Most people do not, and so it makes me feel kinda badass.
Currently, mom is driving home from school after which we are going to taco bell, which I have had a craving for all week (PMS or ovulation or something.. it's weird). I am going to get two cheezy bean and rice burritos... makes me remember those late night runs in Cville. ::sigh::.
I went to the Henry Street